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[Dec. 14th, 2005|06:26 pm] |
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So it's been forever on LJ because I've switched to facebook and myspace. I do keep a blog on myspace for peops to stay updated. Anywho, in regards to never communicating with some people, yeah, it's better to lose an eye than your whole HEAD (that's my paraphrase=P=) ) if it causes you to sin, and honestly, there are certain people I have the hardest time thinking about without getting ridiculously upset. I really do lose my head because we're not made to dwell on certain things. If a brother comes to you and repents, forgive him seventy seven times, right? Well, you do what you can to reconcile and if the person isn't changing or doesn't want anything to do with you, then they're not repenting, and you've done what you can. It's time to move on and let God deal with it. He'll let you know if you still need to be involved. Trust me, I speak from a REALLY recent line of events.
This ALL becomes most relevant with ex's...boyfriends, girlfriends, whatever. Usually, though, it's the guys having a hard time taking any steps toward reconciliation and girls taking any steps towards moving on, so people get hurt. Therefore, from the women's side of things, move on sistah-friends. There ARE other guys out there, and if you find yourself not moving on, it's usually because the root of you is dealing with an insecurity more than anything else. You DO deserve better, and it's ok to stand up for yourself when something is just that wrong. Righteousness is Biblical. You don't have to hate the person, you just have to move on and not settle for less. That's what actively believing that you're worth the blood of Christ, like He made so evidently clear, IS.
Ok, so backin' off the pulpit, here's news: that CD that I've been working on for over a year? yeah, it's just about finished. The final touches are under way to prep it for mastering and mass production. get a myspace account (you don't even have to put anything up on it, it'll just give you access) and visit www.myspace.com/tkout to stay tuned =) As for the west coast....oh, and I don't know how long it's been, so for those of you that don't know, I moved to Upland, California to live with my aunt and uncle on my dad's side...and their six cats. Yeah, I'm DEFINITELY a dog person, but they're ok for now. Batting off the boys, more particularly my cousin's friends, and just trying to get back on my feet financially because I'm really bad at it. =P=) God let me find myself along the way, though. The road was TOUGH, but praise God, we're in the clear and learning other...different...hard lessons now =)
Keep sweatin' out the salvation folks!
Happiest of Holidays!!! =) |
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| Final Reminders before Westward-Boundedness |
[Sep. 20th, 2005|10:34 pm] |
Less than seven days now, and I'll be somewhere else with as much clue as to what I'm doing as I do now. YES! Gotta love it because God is sovereign no matter what.
I'm reading this book called War on Words...mainly because my lack of tact bit me in the...well...ok, so I caught myself that time...but anywho, so I thought some reading on the matter couldn't hurt. It convicted me of my lack of faith in God's sovereignty in ANY situation and how much I demonstrate that in the way I react to not-so-chaotic events, traumatic events, low-key-bad days, pathetically-bad days, annoying people, arrogant people, my dissapointments with myself, my dissapointments with my dissapointments, etc. I've been a Spiritual brat, really.
Yes, sometimes people suck, and yes, sometimes life has a persistent way of roller-coastering mostly downward with few ups for extended seasons at a time, but I tend to concentrate on the events and myself instead of the fact that God is in the midst of using it to shave the character roughness down so that I can grow up to be one re-FIIIIIIIIINEd Queen Sistah! =)=) Focusing on the storm and the sinking feet instead of my Savior...not so condusive to growing up.
Then there's that....growing up....actually, first, here...before I forget, one last reminder:
Here's the email I sent peops for Sunday:
Hello Friends, Family, and People I Consider Family =)
It's official. Seven days from now I will be leaving Boston and moving west. I CAN'T BELIEVE IT! As one last get-together before heading out, please join me on Sunday night Sep.25th at our band's Farewell Concert:
Room For Grey Farewell Concert at
Hoffas Swiss Alps Restaurant and Bar
114 Mt. Auburn Street, Cambridge, MA 02138
(617) 354-5300 tel
Room for Grey will be playing at 10PM and cover is $7 at the stairs. Street parking is available, and the location is T accessible (Harvard Stop on the RED line.) Check out their website at www.hoffasswissalps.com or call the venue for more details.
Check out our band's site at www.roomforgrey.org.
Please pass this along to friends and fellow Bostonians! It's going to be a great show, and I would love to see you all there before I leave on the 7AM flight the next morning!!
Hope to see you soon!
Take Care!
Trisha
Trisha Krieghoff
www.roomforgrey.org
www.trishak.org
....so yeah...on growing up. I'm almost a quarter-century old. Yeah, yeah, some of you are older, but you went through this too, and we're talking about ME right now...princess brat, k? =)
Anywho, so I want to be someone I'm not yet, and I've been praying that I don't lose the patience and screw things up along the way to slow down the process even FURTHER. Is that crazy?
OH! So one encouraging thing I read today. Having ADHD is O-K!!! =) Successful entrepreneurs (did I spell that right?) have ADHD, like one of the head dudes at JetBlue, and learned how to work WITH it instead of against it =) YES! No drugs needed. I AM the only normal person on the planet and everyone else IS crazy!! =) WOOHOO!!! =) Haha =) Just kidding. It was a pick-me-up, though.
I've been struggling lately with all kinds of self-doubts, and that's a big one because I can't concentrate long enough to remember certain details for things. It's frustrating because I really want to be more savvy on politics, foreign affairs, current business mergers, pop-culture movements, medical developments, foreign languages, and like a million and one things that require some kind of MEMORY, which I severely lack. I get concepts, and then when I try to retell stories, I forget the details. Even the JetBlue thing. I read it this morning...he's not the owner, I don't think. I want to say he's the CEO, but he could have been the CFO too, and I can't remember. ARGH!
I know a lot of it has to do with ADHD because I just don't pay attention. I'm not stupid, but I'm not mentally disciplined...but not completely by choice. I work at it for some things, but God knows I'm never going to have the time in my life to dedicate to everything I really want to hunker down and do because there IS NO HUNKERING DOWN. The article was a reminder, though...yet again...of His sovereignty and that all things will come as HE has planned them. I think this current frustration for lack of knowledge is just the beginning of a long process He has in unleashing my desire and letting it ride in its due time....which I think is close, but not juuuuuust yet. We'll see.
Well, enough babbling on this end. Just thoughts for the night. Please pray for energy to finish these last few days out...there's a BIG list of things still needing to get done.
Thanks!
MWAH! |
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| I DID IT!! |
[Aug. 23rd, 2005|07:43 pm] |
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Hey All,
I finally caved in and signed up with MySpace and FaceBook.....although, I still don't have a clue what I'm doing on them yet and have limited access online to figure it out. However, my websites are being updated, so please keep checking back to www.trishak.org and www.roomforgrey.org and spread the word! =) Currently, Room for Grey's site has an active message board, but the monitor dude and I are the only two signed up, so if you get a chance, register and say hi to each other =) You'll get to meet my VA friends and NY friends and NJ and PA friends that way =P=)
I have my first gig THIS FRIDAY at All Asia, so please come out! =) Their pad thai isn't bad at all, and if you're 21+ there are drinks to share...and since I'm playing 6PM - 8PM, you can make it a dinner out on a Friday night =) It'll end just in time to get your party on elsewhere too =P=) I love Boston, it's so ACTIVE =) I'm gonna miss it....*sigh*
In other news, umm....well, I've been fighting being depressed and stressed out all at the same time. I say fighting because God's been pulling me through a lot of emotional stuff lately. I don't remember how far I've updated this thing, but those of you that know me know that when drama hits me, it's a boatload at once. Well, this time around it was having a nasty fall-out with an ex-boyfriend who decided to string me along and use my generous nature to his advantage so that he could date someone else, knowing full-well I still had feelings for him, in the same week I find out that my parents are officially separating (my dad moved out of the house the 20th and my mom is supposed to move back to the States early September...it looks like they're really headed to a divorce this time =( ) and all while I'm trying to get temp work to cover the last few weeks I'm here, trying to move out of my apartment by the end of the month and dealing with rescheduling after rescheduling of these gigs. Let's just say, it's hard to be rejoicing when love looks hopeless, guys seem to be nothing but scum who can't schedule jack and don't know what they're talking about half the time, and nothing wants to be stable for a second for me to get some bearings to deal with all of this.
FORTUNATELY, I don't believe any of that because I've seen beautiful relationships, have awesome guy friends, and God has been my rock through all of this....but it's just not easy...especially when satan has soooo much fodder to work with and arrows to nail at me.
I was RUNNING to catch the UPS guy today. He said he was going to arrive between 2PM and 5PM, so WHY was I freakin' SPRINTING down my street at 1:52PM to catch him before he left????? Anywho, the good news out of it is that I got my demo CDs all shrink wrapped and whatnot to sell at Friday's gig. As a courtesy, for those of you that were able to download it from my site earlier, can you please NOT make copies to give away to friends? I have to raise money to buy a car to drive to interviews and get a job when I get to Cali. They can buy it for $5, and considering I was fair and left it available online for a good deal of time, and that the recording was a couple hundred dollars just for four tracks, I think five bucks is cheap =) Please? Thanks, for your help!! =)=)
Speaking of which, so I'm having an open house this Saturday to sell all my stuff from 11AM to 5PM if you all are interested. I have furniture, home decor, technical junx, books, and CDs I'm selling....again, to raise money...but also because I have to move by Wednesday next week. Any help in spreading the word for that too and whatnot would be great!! EVERYTHING is going, so if you need a bed, a really nice corner desk, an elliptical machine, an entertainment center, coffee table, formal dresses, hats, gloves, home accessories, and ESPECIALLY carpets, you'll want to check it out =) Email me - his_instrument@hotmail.com or call my new cell number - 617-960-6107.
That's the news thus far....please let me know how you all are doing!!
Love you much!!! =)=)=) |
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| ANOTHER GIG ANNOUNCEMENT |
[Jul. 28th, 2005|07:55 am] |
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Hey All =) Ok, so I'm trying to raise money because I have to buy a car to be living in California, so I'm trying it the way ACTUAL musicians do.
I have a gig on Friday August 26, 2005 from 6PM - 8PM at All Asia. All Asia is on Massachusettes Ave. before Central Square. They have directions on their website at www.allasiabar.com. The cover is $5, and demos will be sold at $5...keeping it simple =)
The material will be solo stuff, so it's a different show than the one I am doing with the band on Sunday, Sep.25, 2005. Please come to that one too, as that is the big 'un =) I will have time and location out to you soon. It looks like we are at Harpers Ferry for a 9PM start time, but I will let you know when I know for sure.
PLEASE SPREAD THE WORD and COME ON DOWN! =)=) It's going to be a ton of fun! I'm super excited =) |
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[Jul. 22nd, 2005|07:47 pm] |
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So it's official --- I'm moving to Upland, California on September 26, 2005. I've never bought a one-way ticket in my life, so it was a little bit of a hit when I saw the transaction go through. My last night in Boston, Sep. 25, 2005 --- a Sunday night, Room for Grey is having a farewell concert...in other words, I'm playing with my band the last night I'm in Boston and want to see everyone I possibly can before getting on the flight the next morning!! =) My friend is working on booking us at Harpers Ferry in Allston (T-accessible), and he pretty much has it booked but is figuring out the other bands and what order and junx. I will give you the time we are scheduled to play once I get the "go" from him. Either way, PLEASE COME!! =) Mark your calendars now and start inviting as many people as possible because the more people that show up at this venue to see our band, the easier it will be to rebook it from the west coast when the CD release happens on the east coast!
I'm living with extended family out there, finishing up school, and basically seeing what God has for me with the music thing because I'm a year late in moving out there =P=) The CD is still under way, but sooooo close to finishing that it's killing me trying to get time booked at the studio. Please keep that in prayer...time is a tricky thing. I expect it to be finished by the end of the year (finished as in mass produced with CDs IN HAND) and Valentine's day 2006 at the absolute latest, but stretching it to V-day is ONLY necessary if something crazy happens in Cali where I don't settle in as quickly as I expect. However, God's been lining things up already, so no worries =)=)
In other news, that means I'm selling all the furniture I own because I'm not taking it with me, so if anyone is interested in anything, I've got a TON of stuff to sell. I'd give it away, but I have to save up to buy a car because apparently Cali has no real public transportation system...and it's a DARN good excuse to FINALLY get a car...WOOHOO!!! +) Need furniture? Winter clothes? A printer? Other technical gismos? Let me know, it's a moving sale from now until the end of August! =)=)
Well, that's it for now. I've been up since 5AM and have to be at work at 6AM tomorrow, so I'm going to be an old fart and go to bed on a Friday night =P
Lata! =)=)=) |
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| AHA! |
[May. 11th, 2005|10:24 pm] |
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School is SOOO out, and you can tell because just LOOK at how many more entries there are! Sheesh. Silly humans.
Yes, I am implying that I may or may not be human =)
It seems like my life is being bombarded with boyz again....and AGAIN, the timing couldn't be worse since I REALLY don't want anything to do with them right now, but whatever. I've learned the "be nice, Trisha" routine in times like these.
My boyz from VA...two half-breeds like me!....are visiting me this weekend. I'm excited and quasi-stressed because I have so much to do between now and then, and finding the time to do it is a real challenge. While they're here, I'm juggling the work I have to do to prepare for next week AND a friend' graduation activities. The second they leave I have two gigs to prepare for while juggling my second job and band rehearsals. Eesh.
Then, I have boy from Cali coming to visit on Memorial weekend, and I'm hoping that functions as a vacation as I am making it as "plan-less" as possible. We'll see, though, because Mr.High-Maintenance can be a real challenge too. We got into a debate today about protein supplements....sometimes I wonder why I ever open my mouth.
Drama with the family again that I've managed to pull myself out of this time around....almost got myself caught up in another trap set up by the 'rents. Not talking to either parent until they grow up and get real. Stupid marital wars...why must they insist on using their children as ammunition? I'm so SICK of it. Whatever.
Then, my suspicions about the new guy at work liking me keep getting closer to being truths. He asked me to dinner next Tuesday after work. I'm hoping it's just casual hang-out time, but he does insist he pays because he's Asian (from India) and not American. Basically, he's not going to let me pay...which is fine by me because I have YET to find an Indian restaurant that is affordable AND good. Hey, I wasn't about to pass up a free meal....especially Indian food...mmmmmm =) ACTUALLY dating guys from work is SOOOO strictly forbidden, there's no threat here. I don't have to learn THAT lesson twice. NEVER mix business and pleasure.
Good news is that I don't have to deal with dude from soccer because there is no game this week. Bad news is, there's no game this week =( Oh well. Maybe the Brazilian guys will be playing tomorrow for some palada- action!! =) We'll see, though. I have to do laundry and CLEAN....EWWW!!! It's about to be a Martha Thursday =/
Life. Can't live with it, can't live without it. =P=)
Lata!!
=)Trisha |
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| RARRARAR!! |
[May. 7th, 2005|06:55 pm] |
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Ok, so yes, I was hit on again like three times this past week, but I'm getting sick of telling the stories because the guys are stupid and it makes me mad when they talk from their....nevermind.
To top that, though, I am not a fan of Mother's Day.
My mom just called like twenty minutes ago and completely pissed me off. I was talking to my dad about junk going on because he asked me about work and stuff and was just shooting the breeze, really. She called because he told her I was having problems with my boss, which isn't what I said...I said I think my boss is a real idiot AT TIMES because he yelled at me for something that never happened, and I proved it, but whatever.
Yet, he fails to tell her that he had told me like a month ago that he would look for a place to buy up here so that I don't have to pay rent next year. She calls asking why I had called him, and it was to ask about the apartment, so I told her that, not knowing she didn't know. Then she goes to say, "What did I say when you asked me? I said we can't do that."
First of all, she said, "Talk to your father." He said, "We'll see, but talk to your mother first." I talked to her. Basically what it boils down to is that they have two condos and two townhouses in Florida, and she doesn't want to sell any of them to buy something up here so that I can live in it. Ok, so I talk to my dad and let him know what she said. My dad, on the other hand, thinks it's stupid that she will keep four retirement properties to rent out when they live in a townhouse in Virginia and use one to house my brother straight out of jail for peanuts, but she won't house her daughter who's actually TRYING to make something of herself, so to speak, and getting a masters. He said he would look at properties up here. I stupidly assumed that that meant he would talk to her about it and they would do that together...I must have been dillusional. I forget that they try to be divorced within their marriage. I hate it.
I try to explain that to her, and she FREAKS OUT and starts asking if I've lost my job, what was wrong with me, why don't I have everything under control, why do I have to go to school in Boston....I was PISSED. I cut her short and told her exactly that. Then she tries to change the subject and asks about my friend coming up on Memorial Weekend because she thought I was going to Cali. I told her I was until I found out everyone had plans, so there wouldn't be anyone to see except my friend and it was cheaper to just fly him here instead. THEN she goes to say how is it I can waste money and yet not afford grad school. I told her my friends are NOT a waste of money, and I never SAID I couldn't afford grad school. I just had options for it, and the ideal would be to have rent lifted, but nothing is impossible. I was just getting madder and madder. This woman won't house her daughter and thinks money spent for other people is a waste. HOW AM I RELATED TO THIS PERSON!!!???? I would LIKE to be able to say that at least to her defense that she gave up a lot for my brother, but really, I think it's more because as her title as "mother" he was bringing the most shame to the family and she felt more inclined to do something about it. What a load of crap...shame to "The Family"...what family???? One son has run away...and honestly, he's probably better off for it at this point...less likely to be spoiled and more likely to learn a lesson or two about the real world, the mother and father want to be divorced but haven't decided if it's financially beneficial enough yet...it's DISGUSTING, and the daughter is used as a pawn for their marital wars and neglected when it's more convenient. Title as "Mother"? Yeah, whatever. I hate it all.
I am so sick of this stupid dillusional life. It's trying on my spirit because it's really really really easy to think that's another form of dillusional living and kick it to the curb. That's the one thing I can't seem to do, though...not for lack of trying, either...but because something inside me...deeeeeeeeep inside....it almost feels like the core of my humanity....gets really sick. It's like, if I decide that I'm going to leave God, I might as well kill myself because I've just severed the last lifeline anyway. That, and you really have to be close-minded to a lot of obvious stuff and live a different kind of dillusion to really pull that off anyway. It just doesn't seem worth it to me in the end because then I hate the arrogant, self-righteous, and disgusting creature I become. It's one thing to be a hypocrite and be those things with a foundation that just needs digging to get through. It's another to actually just BE that because there is no alternative. I'd rather be the better pretending for the worse than to just be scum.
Whatever. I don't like me right now anyway. I'm a horrible daughter for telling her off, but I can't be the family doormat anymore. Nobody said I had to be, and it took this long to figure it out. Good thing He never stops working because there's a lot to do on this heart o' mine.
*sigh* prayers...requesting prayers...calling all prayer people...please pray. thanks. |
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| Silly Happenings |
[Apr. 28th, 2005|11:20 pm] |
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Ok, first and foremost, I'm the worst Treeshak EVER because it's almost 10 days PAST and I didn't even get a chance to say it....so.....
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SKID!!!!!
Also happy belated to my sister whom I so belovingly renamed Fred =)
Ok, so what is it with Tuesdays and Downtown Crossing???
Last time I went to go see my advisor he wasn't there, right? Therefore, another visit is in order because I STILL have to try to go back to school and graduate, right?
Ok, so I was a little early in meeting my advisor this past Tuesday, and I decided to stop in at the CVS downtown to pass the time away. I also happened to have coupons for stuff that CVS had sent me in the mail, so I was all excited about using them =P Anywho, so I'm at the vitamin aisle because I have a cold and was looking to possibly get C and Echanacia (sp?) to help it. Some dude stops me as I turn to go to the chocolate aisle, and he's like "Excuse me."
I start at him and think (you're kidding me, right?)
"Do you know a lot about vitamins?"
"Um, not really, why?" I reply.
"What do you take for your eyes?"
I was like, "What?"
"Your eyes. I need good eyes."
"Eat carrots. It's like vitamin B or something. It's probably on one of the rows behind me."
I try to move out of hte way and move on so he can see the vitamins and I can get to my chocolate.
"What's your name?" he asks as he blocks my way.
"I'm not telling you my name."
"What? Why not?"
"I don't KNOW you," was my reply, attitude and all.
"What, can't have simple conversation? What's a name anyway? The government knows your name, and they don't know you. It doesn't say who you are. You could be a completely different person, and all I'd have..."
I cut him off, 'Ok, then what's YOUR name?"
"Oh. Well, I've got a lot of names.'
I rolled my eyes and started walking away, put my hand up and said, "Oooh no. I don't have time for this."
WHY did the dude follow behind me mumbling his defenses about a name not being a big deal?
I turned around and asked him.
"Are you going to follow me all around the store mumbling about name this and name that?"
"Colby."
"What?"
"Colby. That's my name."
"Trisha." I shook his hand.
"Oh, so are you going to talk to me now?"
"No."
He begins to ask me a bunch of questions. I answer them until I can get my chocolate, but he's between me and my chocolate. If only he knew how much his life was in jeopardy standing there, but I didn't bother to tell him =)
"So are you from Boston?"
"No."
"Do you live here?"
"Yes."
"You got a man?"
"No, but I'm talking to someone in California, and it's just difficult. Otherwise, probably."
"What, does he pick up the bill?"
"What?"
"Does he pay the bills?"
"What bill?"
"THE bill."
"I don't know what you're talking about."
"Does he pay your rent?"
"No. I don't NEED a man to pay my rent." Attitude ensues.
"Do you have a roommate?"
"Yes."
"Guy or girl?"
"Girl. I won't live with no guy."
"What? Why not?"
"You all are DIRTY."
"What? How you say dudes are dirty?"
"You are. I have a younger brother. You're dirty."
"I have two younger sisters. They leave hair all over the bathroom..."
"Oooooh no. My roommate and I have rules against that."
"Oh, well you Asians..."
"That's right. Look, I need to get to my chocolate. I'm not big on talking to complete strangers."
"Well?"
"What?"
"Do you think I'm cute? I mean, I think you're cute. I think you're MAD cute. You're fly, you know? I like the way you shop. First you go to the vitamins, then you come here to get chocolate..."
Then all I hear is blah, blah, blah, blah for the longest time, and I just FINALLY find chocolate covered almonds in the form of M & Ms and head to the register. He finally realizes I've been just being nice and trying to ignore him. Because there's more people at the register, I think his boldness disappeared, and he heads out the store and disappears somewhere.
MAN. I contemplated this for a while. My roommate works in downtown crossing and doesn't come home with stories like that, and I know she goes our for lunch a lot. I think I've decided it's because she's prettier. Guys look at her and think, "She's WAY out of my league. " They don't approach her because they know from first glance they don't have a chance. Me? I think I must look desperate or something...such that they feel like they have such a liberty to approach me and use some pretty lame pick-up lines. I'm not dressed up or shabby, just average. I think I need to buy high end clothes and look mean when I walk around or something to keep this random craziness from happening again. It's just awkward and not at all convenient. God's way of telling me to go shopping? You'd think He'd tell me some simpler way. Oh well.
At least my advisor was there this time. I can graduate by July 2007. Now let's just see if I can afford it.
Anywho, the quote of tonight comes from my friend Laura after Bible study:
"I don't like going in there. It's all humid and damp and there's utters EVERYWHERE. Utters, utters, utters."
(We decided to sit OUTSIDE of JP Licks to eat our ice cream =) ) |
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[Apr. 20th, 2005|09:10 pm] |
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TK in -
Ok, so Robert and I are talking as friends, and God has SO blessed it =) I'm not attached to the boy the way I was before, and I'm finding a new thing in discipline...of the mind, of the body, of habit-forming, of de-habitizing....of making up new words along the way....anywho...
so now my problem is a little more complicated, but oddly a little less scary....I'm over him....but I dunno that's he's on the same page....yet.
Please pray for that conversation. He is still very dear to me, but it'll never work out. It becomes more and more obvious why God commands us not to be unequally yoked.
In other news, I've been playing soccer every day this week, and LOVING IT!!! Sadly, I'm finding more and more that I need to learn Portuguese (sp?) and Spanish to communicate with my teammates. Most of the guys I've been playing with are Brazillian, and yes, I am learning a lot....but hey, they think I'm good, so I'll let them keep being fooled....Mwahahaaaaa =)
There's also a basketball court that a bunch of guys play at all the time, and my roommie and I are gonna love on them with lemonade sometime soon =) Please pray for that too. I wanna take a boombox and play Cross Movement and see what happens =)=)
Anywho, so Tuesday, after work, some random guy stops me in the middle of the street to try to pick me up. Opening line? "Excuse me, you have the most beautiful compexion I've ever seen. May I ask, are you Chinese?" I stare at him thinking a million thoughts in my head at once to include 'What is he looking at? OBVIOUSLY not the zits and blemishes I was complaining about this morning. Maybe he meant from far away. Is he even talking to me? I mean, is this for real? Well, he looks like he just got out of high school. He's got 60 seconds to get to the point.'
I shook my head no.
He continues, "Japanese?"
I shook my head no.
"That makes me even more curious. What..."
"I'm half." I cut him off.
"Half Korean?"
('Two points for not being completely culturally naive.')
"Yes, and half white."
"I'm Alfredo, by the way." He cuts me off and extends his hand.
"Trisha." I shake it and still wait for him to get to a point.
"Oh, do you go to school around here?"
('OK, time's up. No point. I'm done.')
"Yes, and I'm late for a meeting, can I go now?"
"Oh, I'm sorry. I didn't mean..."
"Thank you!" I cut him off and headed to meet my advisor which I was already twenty minutes late for and didn't even look back.
Turned out my advisor was out for the week and forgot to tell me. Stood up by my advisor, how wrong is that? Anywho, I think God arranged my "meeting" with my advisor just to get me out of that funky pickle.
Crazy male species.
Whatever.
Gotta run!! Love love love!! =)=)
TK Out |
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[Apr. 7th, 2005|02:02 am] |
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Hey Gang,
For those of you faithfully praying for me, this is an uber request. I broke down and tried to call Robert tonight (boy in Cali) and FORTUNATELY never got a hold of him. Then I talked some sense into myself and got rid of any contact information I could possibly use to reach him. Now, I just need to get the boy OUT OF MY HEAD. PLEASE be praying that God would play a sweeter tune so I can ADD back to Him.
Thanks a million!
TK Out |
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[Apr. 5th, 2005|11:13 pm] |
Ok, so I didn't do much of an update from the last humungo story over Christmas, so here's a brief update. Robert DID come to visit me Valentine's Day weekend, and we officially dated for five days. Yeah, surprise, surprise. Long distance is hard, but the biggest pinch was that we're just not equally yoked at all, and I we decided it was better to just be friends. However, since then, he's been really selfish on and off, and I realized we were arguing on and off over stupid stuff. What it boiled down to was that I was having a hard time redrawing the "just friends" line after months of intimacy and knowing full well we still had feelings for each other, so now we're on a break until September. I'm not speaking to him and asked him not to call me between now and then so that I could have the space I needed to get over him and lose the expectations. It was a good call on God's part because, though it's been hard, I'm way more focused on my relationship with Christ as a result. It's a lot like playing in the ocean and not realizing how far the tide pulled you out to sea....I have a lot of swimming to do to get back to shore, that's for sure...lots of unfinished projects to get back to....most daunting being this CD, this new band, and SCHOOL. Booooooo.
Needless to say, money's been on my mind. It's RIDICULOUS how often tuition is raised at Emerson. I'm thinking of transferring to something more affordable, but we'll see. I'm just not a fan of debt and happen to continue to find myself neck deep in it. I'm learning a lot through it all, though. God teaches patience via people, wallet, and sleep depravation =) Probably the three most effective I can think of, really. I'm learning a lot about how little self esteem I REALLY have when tested and how little or no patience I have in many areas of my life. I'm learning also about how little self-control I have, and in the end, it tends to all boil down to being signs that my walk isn't strong. It's not horridly weak, it's just not looking to be where it should be at this stage in the game. Good thing GOD has patience...one of us has to, right?
Man, where would I be without Jesus? Actually, I'd rather not go there =)
Anywho, that's the brief brief version of life thus far. Call me up if you want to catch up for real =) Lata! |
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[Apr. 3rd, 2005|12:29 pm] |
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It's like a PMS kind of day...the weather is in mood swings...sun in, sun out, rain, dry, windy, warm....NO idea what the weather's trying to do :) BUT IT'S IN THE FIFTIES FINALLY....WOOHOOOOOO!!!!!! :):):):):)
The Pope is dead, the Shaivo lady...is that the right spelling?...is dead, and it's the first day of baseball season. Let's rephrase that to put that in perspective....the Pope is home partying his socks off with Jesus after a LONG while of suffering illness finally ends, a lady is most likely partying with Jesus and not suffering her illness, and the Yankees are about to begin their turn of long-suffering =P=)
What an amazing time to be alive, though. What a simple reminder of our finite-ness. It just brings to mind yet again, "Ok, God gave me TODAY. What am I gonna do with it?" Ya know?
Whatchya gonna do with yours?
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[Dec. 29th, 2004|07:54 pm] |
Man, God rocks my world =)
I went to Denver to visit my ex. When I left Boston, we were friends. We had made plans to meet at the hotel I was staying at because it was a midway point from the airport and his house, and we were suppose to drive from there to wherever...into Denver for dinner, whatever. Well, I landed, called him, he had changed plans at the last minute, made plans with someone else and stood me up when I drove lost in the mountains for almost two hours trying to comply to the sudden change of plans. After a pathetic attempt to apologize and still try to blame me for it, he never called me again. I was stuck in Denver not knowing anyone for a whole weekend. The first two days sucked. I tried to not waste a trip and put a post on Craigslist in Denver to see if people would just take me out, but when a married man tried to meet up with me for "more than a date," I thought better of it and decided I'd rather be stuck in a hotel and depressed than risk meeting up with whackos. Then, I visited my friend Pete and his family and their new baby and went to an open mic in Denver where complete strangers greeted me openly and even gave me Christmas gifts before I left. That was Sunday. I finally was able to call my ex and stand up for myself. I told him off and basically told him I never wanted to see or hear from him ever again. Granted, afterwards I sent him an email to say I couldn't hate him because I don't have it in me to hold on to hate, but that I still never wanted to see or hear from him again. That was more for him to not use me as an excuse to feed his alcoholism. I don't hate him, I just can't deal with him. I went out of my way to see him in Denver and left without ever hearing from him. It took that level of hurt for me to finally wake up and see that I was worth more than what I was believing and WAY more than how he was treating me. PRAISE GOD!! =)=)=)
Monday afternoon, I went to the airport to fly back to LA, and a girl from Colorado was flying out with her dog, totally struck up conversation with me and was like, "That sucks that you didn't enjoy Colorado! Next time you come, hit me up, I'll take you out on the town!" I had made friends with all the people at the bar...if you're ever in Denver, check out the Notters House of Drinks because the people there are AWESOME!! =) I made new friends =)
Monday evening, I finally got in to LA and crashed. Tuesday, I met my cousin Tyler's inlaws when my Aunt and Uncle I was staying with and my cousin Denai took me out to breakfast. Then we went to shop a little and decided to go to a Thai restaurant for dinner. It was funny because my Uncle Darryl was trying to play it off like he's been to ethnic places, but his whole family was like, you don't even know what pad thai is. When we went to the place, he waited for me to order the pad thai. I asked for it to be spicy, and he goes "I want what she's ordering, and make mine spicier than hers." HAHAHA =) My family's so silly =) We ended up going to an open mic after. My Aunt Kathie, my cousin Denai, and Tyler's new wife Christie and I all went. I called beforehand to make sure they were still on because of the holiday week, and the guy was like, "I usually tell people two songs. Then if they're good, I'll let them play more." I told him to check out my website www.trishak.org and listen to the downloads and see if I couldn't get a few more songs. He was like, oh, you can have at least a few songs. I 'll even buy you a drink when you get here =) Haha =) Yeah website! Then I went to this open mic and he gave me drink tickets for my fam. Then I played a few songs and people really enjoyed it! Then, afterwards, I got a free T-shirt from the bar called McMurphy's Tavern =) THEN, the girl that went up after me had her crew with her, and one of the guys that was with her (I think he was her manager) came up and asked me if I would be interested in doing a showcase on Sunday. I told him I'd get back to him for more info later because I was planning on being in Vegas that weekend. Needless to say, I had a blast Tuesday night =)
Wednesday, I got my stuff together to head out because the Aunt I was staying with (Aunt Kathie) and their family were going to see other extended family. During the day, I went and got my hair done (it's got all the highlights back in it), and then that evening I drove to my other Aunt Marybeth's house to visit and see family. I ate a little dinner, but on the way there, my Aunt Robin called (wife of my Uncle Kevin who is my dad's brother) to say that her son Joey (my cousin, but not blood) was home and that they were going to the Yard House ( a restaurant/bar) and that I was welcome to come. I hung with my Aunt Marybeth's for an hour and met up with Joey and his friend Ken to head out. We picked up some more of their friends on the way and had a couple drinks at one guy's house. Then we get there, there's a wait, and the guys buy me drinks. By my 6th shot glass of hard liquor, I wasn't feeling so hot because the burger took too long to get there, so there was no food in Trisha's tummy....she made a B-line for the ladies' room. Well, I hung out there for like 40 minutes or more and Joey had gotten worried, called my Aunt, made rounds with Ken to see if they could find me in the restaurant, sent two waitresses who didn't see me (I have NO idea why, I was there the whole time), and basically, they thought I had disappeared. Fortunately, I came out in time for them to call my Uncle Kevin and tell him NOT to come and search for me. The guys didn't stop teasing me afterwards, though. There were new people at our table when I had returned, one being a guy named Dave who was my Aunt Robin's best friend's nephew, and his friend Robert. Robert and Dave went to talk to some girls and came back and asked me for something to write with and write on. Well, I handed him a little notepad that had my to-do lists on them...big mistake. The guys hounded me for that too and we were all a little inebriated, so they were teasing me and crossing things off that I hadn't done yet. Eventually, I got it back, and we all left. I made new friends =) Then, I watched Elf with Ken, who was crushing on me I found, but he didn't get anywhere =P I made him drive me back to my car after, and I drove back to my Aunt's house to crash and head out in the morning.
Thursday morning, I drove to Yucca Valley to see my grandma and drop off my stuff because I was supposed to crash with them. On the way, I found that Robert had not only crossed off everything on my to-do list, but he had also put his number in it. I called him up to ream him, and it turned into a fun conversation =) He told me he knew Dave from church, that he taught Sunday school and was recently involved in his church. He was a Christian...who knew? =P=) We decided that he'd call me after he got off of work and we'd go hang out =) My Uncle Kevin was having a party that night for Aunt Robin's extended family and friends, though, so I went. I saw most of the guys from the night before, and they all teased me again. Stupid boyz =P Well, then Ken showed up trying to flirt while I'm trying to check my email and I wasn't biting at all. He was getting on my nerves instead, but whatever. My Uncle Kevin and I sang "The Lion Sleeps Tonight" on his karaoke machine (that song's already high, but add my little kid voice to it...yeah, that was fun =) ) and I asked my cousin Joey if he wanted to go clubbing. All the guys were saying he wasn't a clubber. I figured they were all going to stick together, so I just waited for Robert to call. We made plans to go clubbing, and while I was getting ready in the bathroom, all the guys banged on the door to tease me about the night before again.....I tell you, they're relentless. Then I walked out all decked out, and that shut them up, and they were like, wait a minute, where are you going? I told them I was going clubbing with Robert. My Aunt Robin asked me what time I'd be back and they were making measures to be sure I didn't just disappear again =P It was silly. I went clubbing that night at a really hot club, it was so much fun. I had a hot date, and we left there when the club closed to go to the top of a mountain to see all of San Bernadino. It was cool =) However, a cop came and asked us if we knew we were trespassing. Then he asked to scan our IDs and it turned out that Robert had a warrant out.....so my date got arrested. The cop came over and explained it was just a traffic violation he never took care of (because he had moved and somehow didn't get the mail for it or something) and that he was just going to be detained for a few hours, but that it wasn't a big deal. I've never had a date arrested, it was just crazy.
Friday morning, I drove to Yucca Valley again because I was supposed to pick up my grandparents and take them to my Aunt Marybeth's for our big Christmas Eve family get-together. Well, I got lost on the way there, and ended up being two hours late. However, while I was lost, my cell phone died, so my Aunt Robin and my grandmother thought I was missing again and freaked. Eesh. Now I have this reputation for disappearing, but whatever. I got to my Grandma's and Dick...the guy my grandma remarried...not blood and I don't really consider him my grandfather, he's just Dick...anywho, he chewed me out because when I arrived I needed to nap and take a shower. They wanted to leave right away, but I had just been driving for hours, was lost, hadn't slept because I was worried about Robert, and I was tired. Eventually, he decided to cancel a trip to Laughlin we were supposed to go on that weekend as a side thing with Vegas and they went to the family get together early without me. I joined them later. Fortunately, by then, they'd forgotten the tiff and were playing poker in the kitchen. I met my other relatives, had some fun and headed back.
Saturday, Robert and I decided to hang out in Vegas for the weekend. He had friends there that could tell us what clubs were open, and I got a room at the Luxor...a pyramid hotel right on the strip...talk about experiencing Vegas in style!! =)=)=)=) It was SO MUCH FUN!! =)=) Christmas, we had dinner at a reeeeaaally nice restaurant with the sweetest wine I've ever had, recommended by the waiter. We went shopping Sunday and found nothing because Vegas has outdoor outlet malls with nothing but overpriced clothing stores, so I wasn't trying to afford Gucci, Giorgio Armani, Perri Ellis, etc. It was crazy. I didn't know they made kangaroo leather and fur coats....apparently it's big in Turkey and each coat goes for like 2 grand....CRAZY. We went clubbing at club Opium at Caesar's palace where we got tickets in for free and Robert made friends with the bouncers....really outgoing dude who speaks fluent spanish too. I had so much fun that weekend, and we talked about everything under the sun, it was ridiculous how comfortable we were. Well, we're kinda talking to each other now, and he's looking into visiting for Valentine's day weekend.....EEEEE!!!! =)=)=)
Talk about a beautiful ending to a crazy year!! =) Please pray for guidance in all of this. Oh, and as a brief description of this guy, he lived the thug life before going to church and is built like Vin Diesal (sp?) but from Nicuragua (sp?), but talking to him, he's totally outgoing, and is like me in a lot of his personality including telling things like it is and not fearing truth no matter what and his family background, etc =)...but is totally prima donna at the same time...likes to go shopping, knows how to dress, has had more manicures than I've ever had (cracks me up), is funny, animated in telling his stories, and is all about Jesus, but understands we're human....very real and down to earth. I have no idea what God's up to with all this, but we'll see what happens.
Happy New Year all!!
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[Nov. 16th, 2004|10:02 am] |
Ok, so Trude announced it, but for those of you that don't know him, here's the announcement:
I have a basic website now. My friend put it up for me because he's wicked cool like that =) Please visit
www.trishak.org
for your entertainment enjoyment =) Also, as of Veteran's Day, I have a band, and we are called Room for Gray.....as in our walks of faith aren't always in black and white and you have to leave room for God to work through the gray parts =)
Anywho, please pray for me because I'm trying to get a different job so I can continue this music thing. Stay tuned to the site as it will have CD updates as it comes to completion. Also, stay tuned for gigs in early 2005.
Thanks!
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[Nov. 5th, 2004|02:37 am] |
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So. It's been a while since I've felt like God and I are walking in the same direction. Previously, it's felt like we were on the same street and tied back to back by a bungee-strap-double-vest-thingy where He was leading up the street, and I was trying to run backwards...and THAT, folks, is why parents have child-harnesses....but I digress. AAAAANYWHO, so the last three days have been miraculous...everything fell all into place at once it seems. I don't have to struggle like crazy to not hate the guy I work the night shift with because he actually works proactively now and is almost fully automated...ok, sounds like a machine, but you know what I mean...so we get along now =) My ex wrote me an email granting me forgiveness, which was awesome, and in some respects, I think he more wrote it with the intent of keeping me from harrassing him with emails and phone calls apologizing, but hey, the widow knocked on the judge's door, and he wasn't saved either, so it's all free game. Anywho, so that was good. We're supposedly on civil terms and friends, but I've finally come to conclude that it's in my best interest to not initiate any more contact with him until he decides he can handle it. No need to aggravate the poor guy, he's been through enough trying to actually understand me =P=) I'll send him stuff on the holidays like any friend would, but the rest is God's domain. It's good to finally be getting the relief I needed from God emotionally, mentally, and spiritually to move on from him. Then, I told my boss that I'm changing my full-time status to "as-needed" effective Dec.1...which means I'm not guaranteed 40 hours a week anymore, but we're already understaffed there, I've always worked overtime every week, (so I'm really not worried about the hours) and it's like getting a 4 dollar an hour instant pay raise =) I am SO excited for that to kick in =) It'll free me up to finish this CD and get a band going, and the whole reason I made the decision was because I felt God leading me to readjust my priorities and trust Him for funds as I focus on the ministry. I've been searching for a drummer to replace a good friend of mine who would have completed the band I've been praying for. Nothing was working out for almost two months. God and I finally have a pow-wow, I follow Him in this job decision and BAM! --- instant drummer =) I MIGHT have a band!! =) I'm SO EXCITED!!!!! =)=)=) Veteran's Day we're all going to jam and do a kind of audition and see if my bass player likes him. Please pray for that to all work out. I want it to be a good fit so that we can even move on from talking shop to just laying down some foundations of a vision for all of us. It's all in His hands, though. I'm praying He speaks to them, too, in the next few days to make a decision to either really commit or tell it like it is and make a decision to step aside. My parents came up this past weekend, and we survived...that's a praise =) I finally booked a trip to LA for my birthday, so I'm going to actually be with relatives for Christmas Eve and Christmas for the first time since who knows when, and we are SOOO going to party =) I'm really excited about that =) Really really REALLY excited about Thanksgiving because I'll be with some of the people dearest to me, and I'm just on withdrawal right now, so I'll be getting a good "fix" so to speak =P=) Haha =) I've found some AWESOME volunteer opportunities to get in before 24....for those of you that don't know, my gift to myself this year for my birthday was to get in 24 community service/volunteer activities before I turn 24 on the 24th of Dec in the year 2004....fun, huh? =)=) It's been a BLAST so far!! =)=) Mass General Children's Hospital had a Storybook Ball, which is an annual event they hold to raise funds for their various research and treatment facilities. This year's theme was Alice in Wonderland...and you all know how the movie itself is basically the story of a girl on a hard trip or something.....well, let me tell you, this was one STOOOOOPID SICK BALL!!!=)=) The decorations, the costumes, the characters, the food, the music, the auction....it was INCREDIBLE!! It was SUCH a privelege to be there and such a great turn-out. They raised just a little shy of half a million dollars, it was SO COOL! =) I loved it =) I mean, they had a parade with stilt walkers and a marching band, desserts that had thin chocolate slices the size of playing cards with the queen of hearts airbrushed on them, centerpieces of mini-rose boxes that were color coordinated to make cards with numbers on them, other centerpieces with mini-teapots stacked and decorated in such a way as to make it look like a sculpture, HUGE blow up mushrooms and rabbits and clocks around the room, a TIGHT DJ grandstand in the middle of the dancefloor with a supposedly notorious DJ from NYC (anyone hear of DK Skye?...a chic DJ, mind you, and she was awesome!...I soooo coveted her job for like two hours...and then repented when I got home, of course =P=) ), drag queens that came out as the Queen of Hearts and the Snow Queen...both of which were standing in holes cut out of the middle of round tables on wheels that were decorated to match their dresses so that it would all look like a part of one big gown so that they could walk around and twirl with these tables where little plates of desserts sat for guests to pick off and eat....SUCH a neat idea...and way more I could talk about. I also get to do some recording for an organization that records people reading books so that blind and dyslexic clients can learn...I am WAY excited about that one, and the orientation is next week...YAAAY!!! =)=)=) There's about a million other things I can get into right now about how God's totally giving me the holy hook-up, but I'm gonna get going to bed here since it's after 3am =P=) Thank you for your prayers!! =)=) |
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[Oct. 26th, 2004|11:39 am] |
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Ok, so sometimes, you don't know what you're capable of until you fall in love and then have the person leave right before one of the most traumatic times in your life. Personally, I now know for a FACT that I am perfectly capable of depression AND hysteria AND shooting from the hip all at the SAME TIME...yeah natural self......WHAT a mess that made. Basically, I think I managed to drive my ex boyfriend away from me, from anything remotely related to me, and quite possibly from God....HOWEVER, I also know better, and that if he's bound to find Christ, even my mistake isn't going to stop Him. Praise God for that one!...but what a hard swift kick in the butt that was on the effects of lack of tact in the midst of lack of forgiveness in the midst of trying to handle all my problems on my own without trusting God to take care of it. EESH. Pretty embarrassing, really. I'm not a crier....can't tell you how many times I called in a hysterical fit of tears.....not really big on losing control of my emotions...yeah, THAT went out the window.....and I usually don't say anything to anyone until AFTER the emotions get out of the way of my head and I've reviewed God's truth....well, I was DEFINITELY reminded of what happens when I don't freakin' WAIT. How much harder it is to not hate yourself afterwards too...good grief. Can I tell you how much of a fan I am of God's grace????
I think ultimately, I woke up, so although I felt like my heart got stomped on while it was already bleeding from being poked elsewhere, and while it was already suffering the consequences of much self-mutilation, I do have to say that this was probably the best thing that could have happened to me all year =) What a real test of where my significance lies...and in whose opinion....where my faith lies....and for what reasons...and where my purpose lies. I LOVE GOD!! No hard feelings towards my ex, but he did lash back in a couple points and basically said I was acting crazy, that I didn't know what I was talking about in my faith, and that I shouldn't be pushing him because if anything, I was driving him away from anything I claimed to believe. I think I let satan in on that one, and I started to really seriously question whether or not I really WAS crazy....I mean, I know to some degree, I have to be because I'm just NOT normal, fine....but genuine grade A loon? It's possible....so I started to get really scared...and then on top of that I started to ask myself, what purpose do I have in life then? I mean, my whole born again life (almost 8 years) I thought I was to live for God and draw people closer to Him through the love of Christ, but I haven't been loving AT ALL with the person I care most about and even when I do, it's to no avail and he's being driven away....how did I suddenly become a TOOL?....and of the ANTICHRIST for crying out loud??? What if it's all a myth?...and for half of my life I've been putzing around??? Then depression, suicidal thoughts, and a MAJOR mental battle and definitely spiritual battle ensued. Thank God for the faith He places in us. I started reading to look for contradictions, to look for reasons, answers, to know why, outside of my own experiences, anyone else should believe in Him. CS Lewis' Mere Christianity and Lee Strobel's Case for Faith are AWESOME books, by the way.
Just two days ago, in the height of my hysteria, the darkest part of my soul, and definitely one of the worst days of my life, in the middle of crying from the overwhelming guilt and grief and insecurity I felt, God answered me. He has a knack for timing, I must say.
What's wrong Trisha?
God, I screwed up, I've driven someone away from You, and now he never wants to talk to me again and probably hates me and all Christians, and I don't know what to do, what I think, and I don't even trust my thoughts or anything I do anymore. How am I supposed to do anything You call me to when everything goes backwards? I try to do it by Your strength, but I keep falling in my weaknesses, and I've got nothing.
Trisha, he hated Me first, remember? Not everyone is going to accept. (In the Bible, there's a passage where Paul is preaching something to the effect of 'When we speak, we are a fragrance of the Word of Christ....a fragrance of death to those who are perishing, a fragrance of life to those who believe.') Not everyone is ready right away either, so have patience.
Easier said than done, God.
Then we got into almost all of 2 Corinthians...that hit home on a million levels and He was totally breathing refreshment in me =)
Then I went to church this Sunday and the preacher talked about the passage where Paul and Silas were going through a town and a slave girl who told the future was calling out behind them "These men are the servants of the Most High God, who are telling you the way to be saved." Then Paul calls the spirit out of her, and her owners have them thrown in jail. Then there's an earthquake that takes down the cell doors, and the jailer's about to commit suicide, and Paul and Silas stop him saying they're still there and end up bringing he and everyone else to Christ.
After the reading of the passage, before the preacher even got started, my heart went "I FEEL YOU BROTHA!! JAILER, I FEEL YOU!!" He had one purpose in life, guard the cell...you think it's easy right?...and then he fails, almost blindsided by it, and decides there's no reason to live now. Likewise, ministry - one purpose, draw people to Christ...should be simple since all ya gotta do is let go and let God, right?, then all the bad fruit that explodes in my face has me thinking I must have failed, so why live? Then the preacher goes on to point out that Paul and Silas didn't leave the prison right away, why? His quote "because the God who opens prison gates KEEPS them open, so there's never a rush." Man did I need to hear that. My ex isn't going anywhere...he's still young, foolish, and at the height of his life where he can keep afloat with the temporal happiness in this world, so he has no reason to think he can't do anything himself or that he'd actually NEED Christ. God forbid his pride should actually FAIL him at some point in time ;) Give it time, give it time....God knows what He's doing =) In the meantime, I was going through these lessons with the Lord and journaling during service and I happen to look down at the Bible again. Praise God for leading someone to think it'd be a brilliant idea to color code the Bible so that Christ's words popped out...KNOWING that future generations would be more prone to ADD and ADHD anyway =)=) The ONLY passage in the two pages I had open that were highlighted were these words:
"Do not be afraid; keep on speaking, do not be silent. For I am with you, and no one is going to attack and harm you, because I have many people in this city."
I always wondered why God wouldn't let me leave Boston when I was so ready to make a break for it. I can't tell you how far I got into plotting my own little disappearance. He is SO GOOD at knowing just what to say at just the right time =) How much stronger the faith He's placed in me has grown and just how much more AWESOME He is to my limited knowledge!! =) We're so priveleged to serve such an amazingly and unconditionally loving God =) What a big whack to the clay....MOLD ME, YO!!! =)=)=) PRAISE GOD!! =)=)=)=) |
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[Oct. 10th, 2004|10:50 pm] |
HEY! =) I'm selling a poopload of stuff on ebay, so check it out and spread the word. The blue suede slipcover for the oversized sofa Laura had and the matching pillows are on there, the faux fur duvets are on there, there's a couple of instruments and a gigbag on there, textbooks, etc. Check it out =) I'm learning how this thing works...apparently people like German made recorders. This I've learned...what strange people =P
Also, there's this guy Chris at church that I'm asking everyone to pray for. I know nothing about the guy whatsoever except that his name is Chris and that he needs mega prayer, so please lift him up when you get a chance. Thanks!
Also, does anyone know of a place that lists all the charity organizations and volunteer stuff people can work at in Boston? With all the holidays coming up, I'm sure there's got to be a ton, but I want to start working in one that's year-round and not totally taken over by a church, ya know?
Thanks!
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[Oct. 10th, 2004|09:05 am] |
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Shark Tales wasn't all that.....just so you know. It'd be just as good watching it at home on DVD. It is kinda quotable, though =) Later all! |
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[Sep. 27th, 2004|01:43 pm] |
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OK. SO.
To update those of you that missed my most blatant confession, the largest drama of my life just passed. Yes, it was related with a guy, and yes it got ugly spiritually. The past few weeks, I've been fighting depression because I'm still hung up on this guy I fell in love with for no real reason at all. Somewhere in the last two days, however, my head finally cleared up. The guy moved to another state a month ago, and I was going to visit him for Thanksgiving since my family's got their own drama going on and nobody seems to have a freaking home, so I was going to see this guy since we're still friends. Then reality hit me, and God provided. Now, I'm going to Los Angeles for the Thanksgiving weekend and am SO SUPER EXCITED!!! =)=)=) Running to boy = not condusive to getting over him, miserably depressed and emotionally unstable Trisha with continued drama OOOORRRR.....Running off to LA for a phatty 5 day vacation in a hooked up hotel and a fun zippy rental car to see all my cousins grown and hit up a day in Vegas = Trisha tearing up the town and totally back in the game on the Jesus squad =) I think we have a winner folks =) I already changed all the reservations. For those of you who were praying for me, THANK YOU. I've learned about more than twice as much as I could chew and in the hardest way I can think of, but praise God He got me through it.
This show is back on the road. |
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[Sep. 6th, 2004|07:23 pm] |
Ok, so I had a post temporarily up here to update people of my struggles and ask for prayer, if you missed it, I'm sorry, but it's not wise to keep it up for all the public, and a wise friend of mine confirmed. Anywho, I DO want to say welcome back to those people coming back into town. I also want to say that Meagan, I have your rocking chair, and Laura, I have your coffee table. If either of you two would like your stuff back, please come pick it up, otherwise, I'm keeping it :) If anyone knows of any dressers or even short cabinets that people are giving away or yardsales or something, please let me know. I'm looking for small furniture items to finish the new set here.
Thanks :) |
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